1. practising totality

hi beautiful people !

I want to talk about "totality". I consider my life as a privilege; everyday is a new opportunity to be a better person- live in the moment, live like there is no more left.

4 months ago, I was given a chance to join a musical play. I didn't know how much effort it would take to learn new songs and confusing choreography. I realised how difficult and time-consuming it was after a few practices- my mindset changed. The way I viewed the whole day rehearsals collective changed. I got tired in so many different extents.

Practices are pretty much done whole day.

I was delighted but my fascination throughout the day isn't as prevalent as the first few hours- it's how I do things. I do it with a happy face but then after a while I get worn. It made me realise that I have to practise discipline- sit down, inhale-exhale, think about it and finish the task.

It was at the last few rehearsals when I was bursting it off- going at it fullspeed. It's nice to remind ourselves that walking ,sometimes, in a sense, won't get us anywhere. If you have the chance to, give your best shot!

3 days back, my school was able to present the play successfully.

me at the dressing area

If you have my problem, it is best dealt by looking at the bigger picture and not on the little details- it's not simple, I know. But push yourself. Learn to acknowledge not only the things that make you want to back out but also on the things between the lines.

//

take in take out

simple as that

take out

the unhappy 

the distractions 

take in

the fresh new 

air

take in take out

i'm insane (sort of) (i guess)

Hi all!

I've been thinking a lot about my own headspace lately. I have been very unaware of the goings-on around me and have become much lazier! I feel an immense amount of guilt not doing anything for the past days. I am slightly anxious and a bit all over the place really. 

sigh sigh 

"it will pass, it will pass" I tell myself.  

It's important to encourage ourselves not to worry about what happened before or what's going on next because it's a journey to the present. Look now. Do now. Learn now. 

Rough times are rough. 

UGGGHHHH I wish I'm a fish instead

I was eating by myself not very long ago (about a week back). Seeing everyone minding their own businesses and talking and giggling made me think so deeply about my surroundings. How everything was there for a reason. All of us are looking for  the purpose of our lives. All of us no different from each one. The only thing that separates us... perception. I was getting that sense of quiet in the midst of my loud brain. I was getting a bit sweaty since I was eating hot soup causing me to regret it more and more. 

There is approximately 7.3 billion people on earth. Can you imagine that? It's a little nuts isn't it??

(think about that) (no, really think about it) 

Much like how I picture myself inside. NUTS. Every piece of me was drawn to think of how I live, think and look. 

I'm pretty good at personhood. jk 

My belly was all warm inside. I stood up got some water and was dragged back again thinking about relevance and ways to get out of my bubble. I sat there waiting waiting. More waiting. But nothing. I have found nothing. No scraps of idea. No nothing. 

And now, I'm here, Writing this blog. Keeping myself close to my thoughts as if I'd finally find answers to my questions. Floating across the room. Picking brains and eating nuts. How ironic. 

I hope you lil sweetness find your purpose. I might be overthinking. I'm losing my brain cells. Anyway, Have a great day ahead. Tomorrow will be another battle with ambiguous thoughts. Shine bright ! 

(not mine! credits to the owner of the photo)

happy organic hippie

"keep a goal and never stop". Since the start of this year, I've been really into self-discovery. I told myself to be more aware of the things happening around me as well as the things going on in me. I've said before that I change quite a lot of times. Be it the way I speak, the way I dress and most especially the way I think.


//Most of us seek for fresh starts and clean slates. And I'm no different. I just want clear skies and happy days.

breathe in 

breathe deep

no need to be in doubt

no need for those frowns

unimaginably clear

unfathomably content

moments so precious

smile like never before

breathe in

breathe deep

[FEEL GOOD; feb 17 2k15 tuesday 19:26pm]

3 minutes ago, I lost all of my files and I feel terrible because I saved so much documents in there and I can cry now :( I'm so sad. BUT I can't do no nothing about it. Please remind yourselves that you can always make, create, write, save and do something new. Sigh. AT LEAST I AM STILL ALIVE... even if a huge part of me decided to leave. Oh whale. 

Here are some things to be happy about instead 

"I feel so anxious and worn. I'm emotionally confused" "I'm here for you" SOMEONE CARES

Cute fishes you wish were humans 

so much places to explore, so much pugs wearing lil outfits 

so much cats.... lounging 

Your backbone!! never gives up on youuu ♥ 

no matter how many times you have given up today, there will always be ice cream 

and songs that can change your mood in an instant (e.g. the middle by we the kings) 

---- Be happy you guys. Love you a lot :) You can do it 

extra enchantments +++

today I'm feeling upbeat to talk about something serious. mental health. there is a huge percentage of this world that is under the rule of our own stigmas. this is something that interests me because I have gone through so much panic attacks last year and I know how tough it is to fight against what we feel. see, I was aware of what it does. it takes all of our good qualities in exchange for a negative inner landscape. it seems unfair doesn't it? though, you cannot blame someone who is experiencing a mental illness. it's a really hard state wherein we couldn't see why we should be living anymore and it causes us to implode. 

we keep it. we avoid it. we hide it under the rug to make ourselves believe that it's nothing. but it's never gonna go away. if you runaway from your problems it could be difficult to manage it the next time it comes. and yes, there is a next time. it's inevitable. it comes and goes. but if you don't do anything about it then you will be trapped over and over and over again.

our mental heath affects our emotional, psychological and social well-being. it shows how we handle it through the way we act. with all of those pains and tears we lose sight of our full potential. we don't finish tasks. we don't move. we get stuck. 

I was startled when I realised how drained of a person I was.

I WAS AT MY WORST STATE. 

I WAS GAINING NOTHING BUT SAD EMOTIONS. 

----and I knew it wasn't right. 

and finally, when all of my tears were dried up and when I pushed my backbone to help me up once more, I told myself that I was created to do something. like how we were all made.
we are here, right now, to be make a difference.

and not long enough my Realisation, I asked myself for a way to get me out. I know for a fact that only I can control what I'm feeling. I decided to heal myself. but it's not just some kind of healing. it's a healing from the inside.

we should start somewhere deep. 

struck our cores and every single fiber. 

I know how immensely sad it could be to have such feelings running through our veins, like a stray animal. infectious and tragic. but there is always a light that will shine. a spark that would turn our sight back. it is such a delight and I want you to experience it.

after that, damn. you'd see changes. happy changes:) good luck ! walk well <3


just relax. you can do it, dear. indeed ! 
flourish flourish flourish
breathe breathe breathe 

we are a Community

hi guys !! this is one of those "update" blogs I do rarely. And it's nice to just talk to you about random things happening at the moment. first of all, I want to apologise for the long absence (hehe). but I'm back in the route, i tell you !. I was a bit kerbobbled last year with all the schoolwork and sometimes, I really can't think of anything to talk about and blogging became a chore to me. and let's be real, chores are such a pain in the back. But anyway, I came here without any plans at all. I just really wanted to Talk.

[few of the things I'm doing]

-I recently added this "chat" thing in this blog so we're able to talk as one. you can also share some stuff there ! photos, cliparts and Stories. I want to say though, be careful on what you share on the internet. please, avoid sending irrelevant things. I want it to be beneficial and profitable for everyone to enjoy :)

this is us, plant-o friends

- I have been active again on tumblr. I took a break from it, dunno why, but I made some changes over there. you can check it out, sectionragbag.tumblr.com <3

-I started drinking these chewable vitamins, which I completely hate. it tastes like grass. it's probably just me but yes, vitamins are good, drink em up.

-SO, school wise. well, still hard to frazzle with. all the notes and hard topics. oh man. this year though, I am starting to study World History. I think it's necessary. I really love all the Wars, revolutions, agriculture and just the people from our history.

-I was able to eat cookie cereals. I love them. makes me drool.

-tell me what you guys think of the whole blog right now. I hope you guys like it :) I finally, wrote something in the "about" page !! sweet stuff yeay.

-see you latter ! :D

a hidden agony

contributing sincerity towards a person is one of the most unparalleled kindness ever. while I was scrolling through my twitter feed I saw this one that said "here's a cool prank: be kind to people". it impacted me, weirdly, in a good way, and I checked myself with a question "are you kind?". I couldn't answer. because as much as I want to call myself compassionate towards others, I really don't see me being so which, is terrible and wrong, I know. I stopped, naturally, because I wanted to be. I'd trade my intestines to be humane. the rest of that day was a blur but I remember the atmosphere being compelling. I knew that kindness is something I have to apply in my life to be genuine and sincere. I was woolgathering. I didn't like the thought of me being the complete opposite of kind. I wasn't like the person who does random acts of kindness out of choice. I was the one who completely ignores the importance of it. 

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now, a new year has begun, I realised that I should probably start showing kindness by simply giving a pleasant countenance. 

A smile. 

A helping hand. 

because, honestly, not doing so is a bad setup. in my opinion, kindness would outlast any source of wrong. it would be a tough nut to kill. 

have you ever thought about those who start making Stories about their interests and experiences and them be, saying "sorry" everytime? with much wonder, I see the pain because certainly, they feel so Little that sharing their desires would cause boredom and immense disturbance to those who're listening. might be because when they tried sharing before and got cut off by "nobody Cares". how tragic is that? frankly, I think those are the kinds of people who need the tender hearted. show them kindness so for Once, they'd feel a worth in the world. a light that would turn the shadows of darkness in them to noonlight. 

start today :) make a change :) 

2015. the year

!!! 2014 flew by so quickly. And to be completely honest, I felt the most of it in the last few months. I became the most serene and my mind was at the clearest. I was taken aback and looked through all the things I have done. the year 2014 was delightful despite all of my hardships and tears. Above all of those were, happiness, contentment and freedom. I call it the year of self-discovery. It isn't the place of anybody else to understand us completely by ours.

The first months got me pretty sick. I felt underappreciated and uninteresting. The mid parts did the same and I pretty much shared a lot about my anxiety problems and dysfunctional mindset, but really, I was a sad person. I tell you, most of the times I really just wanted fresh air but couldn't even breathe any. I started to realise a lot of things like my polluted headspace and the way I live my life. I soon dismantled, gradually, from all the unwanted emotions and tried, as much as possible, to grip unto something. That something was a realible constant, a friend and an enchanted Buddy. None other than, Christ.

For me, in my head, I don't know what my life is about. I don't know and I will never know what's coming next. Around the month of October, I saw how majestic and sovereign the Lord is. The adventure with Him is the best ever. I know that even if I have the potential to go wrong, He'll never leave me. And that's true love.

So, eventually, every good thing has to end and in this case, 2014.


2015. let's all keep the energy :) Happy new year, lil daisies with eyes.

treasure the moment, it passes by rapidly.

new starts are always good.

consistency is somethings to

practice. feel the universe guiding you.

 notice every signs.

you are here for a purpose and not

by coincedence