Tuesday, October 28

nugget 2. !!!! stained shirt at the back of the closet


admittedly, I was taken a bit of time to wholly build a thought pyramid that will truthfully oppress the less complex spirit in me [ghost formality]. the idea is to make Sense. find a contextual source that will leave a mark on at least one individual. to be honest, we've all been touched by something in a way that we desperately observe every single movement until we leave it behind and vow to create our own Anthem. my view on things dramatically changes every four-six months, so I'm up for introspection every day. it just really depends on my hopeful reinventions to marginalize my minor crises, consensually. 

as a little kid I always see my grandma sweep and clean and polish every furniture and such. prior to that, I was always compelled to seek and touch (I have curious hands) the house for things I find interesting and play with it. and so one day, I was climbing this rather large cabinet in the closet and found a used clothing of .some sort, with a stain. leaving that information down (quite boring), I go on forth searching for something else. 

"the aim of art is to represent not the outward appearance of things, but their inward significance," -Aristotle

for starters, well that doesn't make sense at all. it was just a shirt. but it does. everything was made to make sense. you just have to read between the lines of your own thoughts until you finally have something out of the thing you thought was "nothing". see, it's all about appreciation here in this context. 

it's sad how remarkably made a thing is and nobody ever notices the beauty. sometimes, the things we think has nothing to do with us is involved in a very large part of someone else's . and that doesn't mean we should stop and not care about it. find significance for it and make use of it. 

*p.s "wave segment" is where I share most of my feelings down (v personal)

Friday, October 24

SERIAL STRANGER

As far as living goes, I never enjoyed speaking very deeply to another individual. Though, I think it would be nice, it's just that I haven't experienced it and I prefer small talks. But then, again, I like those serious conversations about society or whatever spills out of my mind which, pretty much, can only be attained with the help of time. Long time. Is it me or this blog // update sucks? I'm sure you ain't here for some lame story telling about my life and you want something entertaining. So my point is, I've always been this stranger to everyone.  I may have met hundreds of people and shook thousands of hands but none of which I actually conversed "deeply" with. If you feel the same then welcome to club. I am a serial stranger and I don't mind. 


It is no secret that I stay by myself a solid ninety-seven percent of the time. 

I hope you lil gooses know that being alone isn't lonely at all. I have at least five different spirits hanging with me each day! Trust me, it's way fun observing. Now I'm not saying that you should rid yourself -----from everyone [I have physical friends, I know you do too] okay. I just find it so odd how in this generation a huge chunk of beings believes that popularity is important. Nah uh. 

Enjoy yourself and you're good // sooner or later, random living creatures will come up to you because they think you're cool in your OWN way. 

----- goodluck silly gooses, love you

Romans 12:2 And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, and ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God




Wednesday, October 22

nugget 1. daisy chains

“It's harder to pick and choose when you're dead. It's like a photograph, you know. It doesn't matter as much.” -Neil Gaiman



More often than sometimes, I wish for the sun to come out. Everytime I sight the bright big ol' thing, I feel like my little pieces could finally find their way back to me. Because I'm a broken window pane. Those pieces explicitly show my stubborness and flimsy side which causes me to break even more. I wish to be spineless. For it will set back to finest and happy moments of my life (i guess). I can remember, very vividly, that I was just this little girl delighted with the little things. So innocent and so fragile. So gone.
(throwback to a happy 9-year old self) /// many sighs ago)


I begin to become sorrowful and I overthink my actions. Self-conscious about the way I breathe. I wanna be connected to people I know, for sure, would accept my flaws. And see me as that little girl. But what if I'm too covered up with dirt? Is it possible to revive my vanish self?

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I'm a girl


beginning to move


farther  and  farther 

to the ground

I'm a girl

lost and free

like flowers that bloom

slowly

I'm a girl

searching for something

deeper than the ocean

I'm a girl 

who walked away 

tenderly

to find significant

constants

I'm just a girl


*source: http://the-englishroses.tumblr.com/

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James 1:22
But be doers of the world, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves