4. always at the edge of something greater

& I hope that you are as well as I am. Indeed, it has been a wonderful month. I came upon a lot of realisations and incredible mental breathers that strongly helped me contrive my way out of unlikely emotions and sad energies. I ain't complaining about them [sad emotions], in fact, I am grateful for them because they make me appreciate little happy things- it's correlative. When you tell yourself that today will be a good day, all your energy seem to cooperate. One positive energy will connect to another one until the pile gets bigger and you got yourself a mountain of smiles!!!

Recently, I started getting back on track with my studies and quite silly, I am still having a hard time with it. I feel a bit paranoid about deadlines & I actually have none of those. I feel like none of us ever have. Deadlines are just there to help us push through. And of course we have to take them seriously + cheerfully. Deadlines is just an idea. It's not something we should be scared about. Often times, I take them as funny little, sometimes, annoying reminders that tell me to understand that I have to finis a certain task. Not all tasks are easy. Some of them even out of our comfort zones but then tell yourselves that the sky is the limit for you. You can, you can, you can. So do it. And in a few while, out of genuine hard work, you'd get it done in no time!

As a kid, I always wanted to work creatively. I want to feel like I'm in my own quirky happy world. And I guess that will never change. I would always want to see between horizons and somehow find something good and authentic. The big question is when? Why wait til I grow up, right? I may not have the resources to take steps of what I vision but I can always start slow. Start with what I have. And collectively, enjoy what create.

If you really love what you do, I'm sure you won't mind the bumps and lumps. They might discourage you but no matter, yous should never stop at a certain point. Look forward and own it : )

3. take a vision and make it real

Today is a great day in so many different levels 

I was able to get my energy back to my studies. I'm currently studying Chemistry and... oh my goodness ! It's not overly boring or difficult but ahhh !!#@#$^%$& !!!! It's mind bending, both in the positive and negative way. But- 

I'm happy that I am not procrastinating (1/2 jk). But still, it took a lot of pushing to get myself to catch up. So that makes me happy : ) ) 

About 30 minutes ago, I was followed by this incredible girl on twitter, Rosie, who is raising up money to set up a Children's Home through challenges. One of my aims this month is to, as much as possible ,try, to take my hat down and salute movements, campaigns, charities etc. 

this is a snap of my conversation with Rosie ! you can follow her through her journey,
@fullreach on twitter : ) and if you can please help her out by
sponsoring ♥

I am easily inspired by people like her. They devote so much towards what they love doing. That makes me realise how I should live my life. This day will be remembered a lot because this impacted me in a lot of angles. 

It's time to live with bravery 

It's time to throw off hesitations

I love doing a lot of things but sometimes I experience much lines that I do not dare to cross because of fear. I have very low confidence on myself. I get discouraged when I receive criticisms and words that are against what I feel; what I do. But that's part of life. Most of time others won't understand what we're doing or why we're doing what we're doing. Life is what it is. It just depends on how you live it. 

Criticisms are actually helpful. It opens up space for you to improve on. It lights up spots that you should work on. Learn to accept them positively because they mean well. That's easier said than done because I know myself that I build immediate voids when I get criticisms. But that's something I'm utilizing in me. I hope you do as well : ) Practise to look them in a good way !!!!

When you're given a chance to speak; give criticisms or something, make sure you do it sincerely and do it because you want to help the individual and not to put them down. We're here to help build up each other. It is more effective when you positively commend them then state what they still have to work on then commend them again.

E.g. "You're doing such a great job ! I like your ideas so much though, I hope that you get to work on your productivity. You can use some of the time your devoting to making ideas to actualizing your goals for one idea. You're incredible, keep it up,"

That's something I learned because it's nice to somehow, sandwich the criticism with your positive statements so that he won't feel bad.

I have a lot of dreams in my life. 

In general, I just love looking forward. I like the feeling of being able to move forward- close to my dreams. Close to where I see my soul will be lifted. It's a nice feeling. 

But then, I'm not there yet. 

My prospect in life is to create a world of my own wherein I will be able to fizzle about my little thoughts and make something out of it. 

How do I get there? How do I reach that level of imagination? 

Set goals. Set goals. Set goals. It's always never too late. Paint down what you see. Look the seaside, remember what you see. 

Light the spark. Make it last. 

2. "life, passes you by- don't be wasting your time"

      I'm intermittent when it comes with living life, I admit. But I'm trying, as hard, to be active and get my energy up no matter what I'm facing. Be it just cleaning my bed or beating eggs for
breakfast. As a kid, I got asked a lot of times of what  wanted to be when I grow up. I always say a doctor or some sort of occupation. But at this point, I just want to live simply and happily. Of course, there is still a desire in me to work and experience having a job but I want to work on the present.

    Often times, I feel like being tossed around in ridiculous places with heavy baggage and I try to understand why I was brought there. I used to think that well this is what I have to deal with; this is how things work. But then this is my life. I have to make choices for myself. And sometimes the greatest decision in life is to let go. Let go of the painful things- voids, empty desires, even our pasts.

   Don't go throwing tantrums. Control control control.
It's weird how tantrum is defined as a something most "young kids" experience when I'm still having them. Come on, honestly, all of us. Tantrum is an outburst of frustrations! Not just for children....

   Anyway, the point is, instead of throwing a tantrum, learn to recognize your frustrations and don't let it get to you as much. Help yourself.  You'd feel much much better.

   Envision envision envision.
then let it happen. Cultivate. Describe yourself with few words and cut their definitions out. So you would know yourself even better.

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   Before, I wanted a lot of things. I wanted to get in touch with a lot of things. I wanted to get to know a lot of people. But now, I realised that "less is more". Speak little. Own little. With that, you get to appreciate the things present in your life a whole lot more. Know the essentials.

   One time, while deep cleaning my room (because dirt and random clutter is everywhere), I was thinking a lot about having less. I threw a lot of things that don't make sense. Things that aren't extremely compelling. I promise you this, it's better to be roomy so you could vent out positive energy.

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 Stay hydrated and healthy (mentally and physically) :)

( i don't own the photos at the start of the blog. all credits goes to the owner)